Save Myself

I was sitting in a bible study at 19 at Toby Mac’s house.  His wife, Amanda, was leading a group for young women.  I can’t even remember what it was about, I don’t remember how I knew about it, and to be honest, I’m pretty sure I was mostly there because it was a beautiful house…. that belonged to Toby Mac. 

That bible study changed my life.   I was talking seriously about marriage with the guy I had been dating, and I was really struggling with it.  My boyfriend and I both knew God, but we put him aside when it came to intimacy.   It was at this bible study that God was calling me to give him all of me and all of my relationship.  If I was to move forward with this man, we needed to put God first.

What did it matter?  We had already "crossed the line".  What difference would it make now?  It’s not like you can start over.

But the bible says we can.

“Great is His faithfulness; His mercies are new every morning.”  Lamentations 3:23

So I talked to my boyfriend about it and to my surprise…. he completely agreed! I was so thankful we were going to take this step together, but I’ll be honest, it was not easy.  It was 9 months before we got married and I remember thinking it was impossible.  Amazingly, we made it.  This commitment was the beginning of Bill and I putting God first in our relationship, which has lead to blessings I cannot begin to count and a journey I could have never fathomed.

FAST FORWARD several years…..

My sister Brandon & I have a band called MENA.   We heard this song called “Save Myself”.  It took me back to the moment I made the decision to take God up on wiping the slate clean.  We both knew this song needed to be heard.

So what does it matter?  I will tell you this: God’s plan is perfect.  How can we ask God to bless our relationships if we don't put him first in them? Maybe you haven't walked perfectly. That's ok, because he has you covered: His Mercies are new every morning! I encourage you to take God up on wiping the slate clean.

"They'll get to know me by being kindly forgiven, with the slate of their sins forever wiped clean." (Hebrews 8:12 Msg)

- Leah